Reflection on writing (and my serious disinclinationi towards it)

I just couldn't get myself to use the 'hate' word - I'm on a whole Be
Positive rant these days.

I have realized that to become a better writer, you just need to write.
I realize this as I sit down to write my essays, and freak out because
a) I haven't left myself any time and b) I don't like writing. I
actually started working on my essays a while back, but never
prioritized it because I simply just didn't like writing.

Man, if only I just wrote for the love of writing. Blogs must definitely
be given credit for unleashing that creative writing within all of us.
Even if it's not creative (case in point - this hashjob of a blog), at
least it's better than culling your writing abilities.

After all I did to escape writing - taking AP english to skip out of
college English, choosing a science major so I would never have to write
a paper, and now it still comes back to bite me in the ass.

One thing about MBA apps I'll tell ya - it makes other grad school
applications sound like a joke. Lot smaller, lot easier, lot less
involved, and much much much easier on the pocket. I can apply to 5
regular gradute programs for the price of one MBA program usually. And
I'd still have better chances of getting in.

In fact, that's one of the dilemmas that I've been facing in the last
week. As I procrastinate, I have been looking for more and more
justifications for a) Not applying and thus b) Not getting into any
decent colleges. One of my recommenders makes a very cogent argument: "I
don't understand why you don't stay in India, where the market is
booming NOW, and won't last forever. You want to go back to the US for
two years, and come back when the market's cooled down and nobody's
hiring anymore. It doesn't make any sense". It echoes a nagging voice
I've had in my head this whole time - if my vision is to start a social
business in India, why am I then going to the US to learn how to become
a good corporate General Manager? Shouldn't I just learn by actually
starting a business?

(On a sidenote, it's actually kind of funny that the person recommending
colleges why an MBA program at their school is right for me is trying to
convince me why an MBA doesn't even make sense).

In any case, I think this blog has served this purpose of getting the
writing juices flowing, so I bid you adieu.

- Ashish